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forgiveness, i thought, was cheap and it would only let you slip away from the arguable difficult necessity of letting hurt teach you how to survive.
because that was all part and parcel with self-respect. even if you ever forgave someone who wronged you, i swore to myself that i would never. if you were my friend, i was gonna be in your corner no matter what, because i never had anyone protecting or defending me growing up and i wanted to be that for people. i was always the friend whose greatest asset was my loyalty. thus my current uncomfortableness in the subsequent cognitive dissonance now wreaking havoc on my anxiety-what-if-brain. i only jumped into tf post-war, meaning that just like tailgate or velocity, i was never in the mindset of a victim of decepticon violence and therefore had a hard time reconciling the megatron that was trying to do better and had never harmed me specifically with the megatron who was genuinely irredeemable in canon. i think it was easier to keep holding onto a more black-and-white version of morality than i knew objectively was incorrect because of the circumstances of my own life, how frankly i'm unlucky in many aspects and one of my worst yet prevailing traits is that i see myself as a perpetual victim and thus tend to seethe in self-important righteousness rather than allow perhaps a healthy amount of guilt to force me to self-evaluate and improve. it was embarrassing enough to admit to my friends that he's the character that finally made me like 'get it' about people and their obsession over- in a shallow sense, fictional villains and their thematic redemption- but in a larger sense, the perspective of someone who's been the bad guy and is trying to grow anyway. Tbh i dont know what this thing is with me and megatron recently. Of course your friends were part of the University life as well, however it seemed like they had much more time than you. But over all you just missed your friends, you always see them hanging out with each other, going on trips together while you were stuck with boredom and nothing but schoolwork. The time you guys were still in Highschool, enjoying life and just having fun. You had to admit it, you missed the old times. and yet I feel broken, Kenma's ignoring me once again.'' He sobbed ironically, making you smile in an instant. ,Well Im doing pretty good! How're you and the boys doing?'' Kuroo's face turned dark, making you worry, but once you've heard his answers you couldn't have expected less from such an idiot as him. ,Hey Hey Tets!'' - ,Hey! How're you doing over there?'' he smiled, taking a sip from the cup wich was located right next to him. Once his faced showed up on your screen you smiled and waved, shoving away the nervousness you just had.
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